Recently I’ve been doing some soul searching.
As I get better, more able, into my final years of high school, older, I have been trying to find who I am without my disability.
I've always felt like ‘the disabled friend’ or ‘the hospital kid’, I’ve never truly felt that I knew who I was and what my values were as an individual.
At the beginning of this year I started a TAFE course in Certificate 3 Community services and with that I need to do sixty hours of work placement each year of the course.
I started to think about what interested me, where I want to go in my life and what I was curious to learn more about.
I have always wished to be a nurse, ever since the young age of eight I've been writing about it in my diaries. I like to believe that I’m a naturally nurturing and caring person, it makes me feel good when I help people.
Currently I want to go on to do my Bachelors of Nursing and Midwifery, I feel myself being drawn to this kind of work and I light up with interest whenever someone mentions birth and babies. This is what I want to do with my life.
However I do have to place myself into the mindset of ‘the disabled girl’ and think about how I’m physically going to achieve my goals.
Will I be able to walk around and stand on my feet for a length of time?
What happens when I have my hips replaced, will I be able to go back to work and still have the same abilities?
Will I be able to handle to studies that come along with it and placements that happen?
But, I know in my heart that what is meant to be will always find a way, so I trust that I will be able to do this. However the future looks for me, I’m finally exited about it and have aspirations + goals that I want to reach, and I’m going to try really damn hard to reach them.