I'm struggling a lot tonight with flashbacks. Not just visions but flashbacks. I feel completely encompassed by this horrible feeling and I feel my body being thrown back into that moment as my brain brings it into my conscious thought. I can smell the room, feel the air and how the energy moves, I can hear everything and see everything. It's tough to bring myself out of this because as soon as one starts it is like a movie reel and other events are brought up. To summarise: I feel defeated by the flashbacks tonight, I feel as if they won't stop until I sleep, I'm struggling not to cry, and this really sucks. But, I will wake up tomorrow and hope it's a better day.